My mom passed away today

I've been absent from OH for 2 months - new job - medical problems (chronic pain) - other issues - and I apologize for that, but I'm hurting today and wanted to tell you why.

My mom (age 90, advanced Alzheimers) passed away this morning (heart attack).  I had just seen her yesterday.  She ate 2 bites of the chocolate cookie I brought her (she'd rather have one bite of chocolate than an entire pumpkin pie).  She was miserable (couldn't find the words to explain her thoughts and feelings) and crying, but I hugged and kissed her and told her I love her.

I think Mom was ready to go, but apparently I am not ready to let go of her.  I'm 56 years old, but I feel like a 6 year-old who lost her mommy.

To add to the stress of losing Mom...the nursing home ignored my instructions to call the NY funeral home where she'd pre-paid her funeral expenses and sent her to a local funeral home that has already embalmed her...but she wanted to be cremated...I understand that the local funeral home can't keep dead bodies around for long, but they couldn't call the NY funeral home, or put her in the fridge for a few hours?  Now I have to pay for the embalming...

And, I still have to call Mom's sister, and her best friend, and I can't locate my pastor, and I have to work tomorrow 7:45 am to 4:45 pm...aargh!

Thanks for listening,
Jean

So sorry you have lost your mom. Mine suffered with Alzheimer's too before her death and it was like she was dead a long time before she actually died. Hang in there,
Holly

Jean,
So sorry to hear about loss.  I'm glad you got to see her yesterday and got a chance to tell her you love her.  Hang on to all your great memories.

Sending sympathy and warm hugs.....
Ruth

Hi Jean,
I am so sorry for your loss. I know how you feel, I lost my mom when I was 10. It is going to be 45 years in December. Prayers are with you.
Carla

Oh Jean, I'm so sorry for your loss.  I've missed reading you on here.  My thoughts and prayers are with you tonight.  I just can't imagine your pain for the loss of your Mother.  I've not had to face that yet. 
Hugs for you,
Pat A

Jean,

I am so sorry to read about your Mom passing and I know how you feel as far as the loss goes, I still miss my Mom and it's been 8 years now.  That ache never goes away, but it does lessen over time.  She is at peace now and you have her always in your heart!

Hugs, Laureen

I am so  sorry for your loss.  I lost my mom recently and I know it hurts though we know they are in a better place.  My prayers will be with you in the next few difficult days.

Jean so sorry to hear about your mother. you do have the knowledge that you were there yesterday and were able to hug her and tell her you loved her . that was comforting to her as a mother more than anything else you could have done. Even with her having Alzheimers she knew love. .

 Jean,

Words cannot convey the sadness I feel for you.  Besides losing your Mom the extra complications of the nursing home and funeral home only add to the stress.  My prayers are for you and your family.

I'm glad you had the time you did with your Mom;  Those last few moments sharing a few bites of chocolate are what memories are about.  I'm sure you have many.

Hugggsss.....  don't be a stranger.... we've missed you.

Millie

Jean,

Please accept my deepest sympathy in the loss of your mom.  My mom had vascular dementia and it was very difficul****ching her deteriorate before my eyes.  She'll be gone two years December 7th.

Sounds like you've had a lot going on.  I hope you feel better soon!

My deepest sympathy,

Debbie